Tuesday, 17 May 2016
Diabetes Blog Week - The Other Half of Diabetes
People often discuss the physical implications of diabetes. If you don't control your blood sugar you are going to lose your feet. If you don't control your blood sugar you are going to end up blind. There are two sides of diabetes - Physical and Mental, Both sides of diabetes are just as important as each other, and that is a that many people don't realise.
The people around me, especially my family who live with me, see both sides of Type 1 Diabetes. Often I get so upset about living with this condition that I lash out. My mum and sister get upset when I'm upset. They hate seeing me like that, and the mental side of diabetes can be degrading, and it can hurt people around you as well. My Family understand that I just get frustrated when I try so hard all the time, and often it isn't good enough, and my blood sugars go haywire anyway. It is hard when all that hard work was for nothing, and then I have to go and do it again. So if I lash out, or don't say a word, I am probably just upset about how frustrating controlling my blood sugar can be. My family know what not to say when I'm upset, or when not to ask how my diabetes is going that day, and I feel so grateful for that.
When I'm not in a good place with my diabetes, I either go to the gym, which always cheers me up, or I go to bed. This is not the ideal place, because it gives me too much time to think, but it is warm and it gets me away from people around me who may judge me.
Being a teenager, I find it hard to feel normal around my peers. That is the hardest thing for me. I sit my exams separate from everyone else. I end up going hypo in shops and have to stop everyone from their shopping. My blood sugar is high so I constantly have to go to the toilet and interrupt people. It is the little things that upset me, but I have amazing friends who support me and are very accepting when something happens. So if you have friends that don't accept both sides of your diabetes, they aren't people you should surround yourself with.
The physical side of diabetes is important, but so is the mental side. Physiologically speaking, it is very difficult to control something 24/7, have a chronic condition, and not get upset when things go wrong and you end up feeling ill again.
Don't coddle us because of this, however, we just want to feel as if we are normal. Just be aware that it is difficult
Until Next Time,