If you follow my blog regularly, you'll notice that I have been a bit absent and haven't posted in a while. There are many reason for this: Being extremely busy with University and placement, having personal things going on at home, but mostly because I needed a break. I try to be as honest as I can about my health, but I found that by talking about being Type 1 Diabetic all the time, it became how I defined myself. I was the diabetic girl, I blogged about my health and the people around knew all the ins and outs of it, and what I wanted most was a break.
In the times of social media, everything is so public, and I have craved a bit of privacy, to be in my own bubble for a while and take care of myself. I have found myself being obsessed with getting other peoples approval on Facebook, Twitter etc, and I am embarrassed to say that I do care about how many likes and shares my posts get. I needed to take a step back, and start seeking my own approval for things, rather than craving approval from others, and not be measured by the amount of likes I get.
Social media, in terms of support, can be brilliant. There is a brilliant community of people out there, who understand what it is like to live with Type 1 Diabetes, who can offer an ear and a hand when needed, but with this comes judgement. I found that being on social media, I can hear so much support, but if I hear even one piece of judgement or disapproval about the way I personally do things, it sticks with me. I know that there are so many wonderfully supportive people out there, but I can't help take the negative comments forward and let the positive comments fade into the background.
So yes I am busy, and I do think social media is brilliant, however I am trying to use it with a lot more caution than I did before. I want to continue spreading awareness, educating people what it is like to live with Type 1 Diabetes on the daily, the challenges it brings and how I control it in my life, but I am now going to be more apprehensive of what I put online. I believe this will be better for my mental wellbeing in the long run, to not obsess over whether other people are judging me.
I will still be as honest as possible. The reason I started blogging was to help the people around me understand that Type 1 Diabetes isn't just taking an insulin and being fine, and I still want to do that. I have just realised that I don't need to put everything of myself online in order to do that.
I hope that you all will continue to follow my blog.
Until next time,