With type 1 diabetes, it is easy for blood sugar to end up higher than it should be, as there are so may factors that affect it. I often say to people, "I can't come anymore, my blood sugar is high" and I get the impression people feel this is an excuse I use to get out of things, when in reality I feel so unwell. Sometimes I can still carry on when my blood sugar is high, but often I get so exhausted that I have to rest and recuperate. When a person with diabetes has high blood sugar, it can feel so awful and draining, and it can feel embarrassing when it prevents you from doing things, but you have to respect my bodies limitations.
When my blood sugar is higher, I am always shocked by how thirsty I become. Think about being really dehydrated after exercise, but every time you quench your thirst, the feeling comes back after about ten minutes. Long bus journeys, long university lectures, with no access to water, are absolute torture. I normally carry about with me a litre water bottle with me just in case my blood sugar ends up higher. The excess thirst is also accompanied by increased urination. A trip to the toilet is needed every half an hour, even a simple shopping trip can get interrupted by having to find a toilet that can be used.
The biggest thing for me is the fatigue that I get when my blood sugar is high. I could have slept perfectly the night before but feel so tired the whole day. My whole body feels tired and heavy, and it takes so much effort for my limbs to complete tasks. Everything I do takes so much thought and effort. My mind feels tired, and I can't concentrate on anything. If I try reading a book, I'll read a couple of sentences, then forgot the sentences and have to go back and try and take in the information. That is why I found university harder at times. That is also why I have become a master at the famous student afternoon nap, because I am so tired due to high blood sugar!
Another bad symptom of high blood sugar is the effect it has on my mood. I become so emotional, so the slightest thing would make me upset. If I am watching something on the television and a happy event happens, I will start crying randomly. I also become extremely irritable. I asked my mum how I act when I have high blood sugar and she said "When Alyssa's blood sugar is high, she becomes stroppy and argumentative. She will not do anything she doesn't want to do!" This is after asking her to be nice about it! The tiniest thing will annoy me, and I will get angry about it. My whole personality changes, and I can't control it, and it is really difficult to explain to people that it wasn't me who snapped at them, it was only because my blood sugar was high.
High blood sugar is short term, but can have long term effects on the body (which I personally try not to think about). It is extremely hard to carry out simple tasks, and for me, when my blood sugar gets higher, I am not in the right frame of mind often to correct it, due to the mood change associated with high blood sugar. It is a hard cycle as well, because if you correct your blood sugar with too much insulin, you can often go the opposite way and have low blood sugar, which in turn presents a different problem. Living with type 1 diabetes is harder than it seems.
Until next time,